dreams are slipping away.

this year, i've been set to go through a mid-year transfer from my current course to biomed. but today, i found out that biomed doesnt accept mid year transfers. not only that, apparently in order to be considered for transfer, i need to have a distinction average for all my subjects for the duration of my ENTIRE course. since that was the reason why my application was rejected last year, then.. obviously it'll be rejected again this year? :( i'm feeling so disheartened at the moment, and it just feels like my dreams are getting further and further away.

i've been discussing my options with my friends, and we were thinking that i should just apply again anyway, and see how it goes, and apply through vtac as well. i'm really really really hoping that it'll work. and i hope IF i get in, my credits can be transferred too. and if it dont get in, well, looks like i'm stuck in a place i dont really want to be.

i actually cant believe how much i dislike my course. i feel as if everything we do in our course is 'pointless', and i seem to have the attitude of "ugh, this assignment is so stupid. oh well, i wont be doing this course for much longer anyway.. cant wait till i transfer". if only i took things more seriously, then i would ACTUALLY be able to transfer. :(

exams are coming in a few weeks, and i havent started studying yet. and i have so much work to do in the next coming weeks. i really dont understand why they set assignments that are due right before exams ! D:
stressing out, really want to do well ! but slowly losing my motivation to study, especially now because it seems there's no way out, and the pathway towards my dream is long gone.